my beautiful memories
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Friday, September 22, 2006
5:34 AM
..just keep your eyes and ears open..
..be able to help...
i couldn't tell you
why she felt that way
she felt that everyday
i couldn't help her
i just watch her make
the same mistakes again
what's wrong
what's wrong now
too many, too many problems
don't know where she belongs
where she belongs
don't be stupid..look around you..
are you aware of what you make me feel
right now i feel invcble to you
like im not real
didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
why'd you turn away
here's what i have to say
i was left to cry there waiting outside there
grinning with a lost stare
thats when i decided..
communicate...
lets talk this over
its not like were dead
was it something i did
or was it something you said
don't leave me hangin on a city so dead
held up so high in such a breakable thread
learn to move on..
since you've been gone!
i can breath for the first time
im so moving on
yeah yeah
thanks to you
now i get
what i want since you've been gone
don't be too negative, think positive!
have you ever seen such a beautiful night?
i could almost kiss the stars for shining so bright
when i see you smiling i go
oh, oh
i could never want to miss this
coz in my heart i know what this is
have you ever wonder what life is about?
you could search the world and never figure it out
you don't have to sail the oceans
no, oh no...
happiness is no mystery
its here and now,
its you and me!
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Thursday, September 21, 2006
4:47 AM
...so what?
Hay naku, nakakaasar. sawi ako. sawi. huhuhu, pero hindi ko naman masabi ung pinaka dahilan kung bakit. maraming dahilan. mga dahilan na hindi ko alam kung acceptable ba! nyaku...anu b nmn yan, mukha lng akong cra!
so what naman db kung nagkkmbutihan n cla? so what nmn kung partners cla sa rizalian to fame n un? so what naman kung hindi niya ko kilala at may iba xang gusto!? so what naman kung nabuko na niya na gusto ko xa, pero wua lng nmn xang pake dhil may iba nmn xang gusto...?!so what naman kung tinatarayan nia ko at ndi kmi in good terms!? SO WHAT NAMAN KUNG AYAW NILA SAKIN!?
Marami nmn akong kaibigan,..maraming pwdeng 2mulong sakin..mraming may care sakin. nanjan naman si vieira, sarah, febe, gezella, graziela, grace, jonell, chiara, jainah, jullian, jepri,....bsta.., di ko na alam...marami nmn akong pwdeng ibang mgustuhan...marami. huhuhuh...;(
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Friday, September 15, 2006
8:23 PM
hay naku..
hoi justine! pinagtatawanan ba kita? at cno n nmn 2ng naiinis sakin...sawang-sawa na ko..kung maiinis kayo, ipakita niyo saking naiinis kayo hah..pra ndi tau nagkakaplastikan, ekei!
nakakasawa naman ang mga araw ngaun...di ko alam, parang walang nangyayring mggnda maxado....
except nung nkita ko si rui..(i dunno kng gnian b spelling nian..) peo, ang cute nia tlga..at nung nakita ko si francis!!! wahahaha, ang cute nia..kso..nhhya n ko sknia kpg nkkta ko xa,,...sna d n lng nia alam n gusto ko xa...argh...
at xmpre, happy rn ako ksi may bgo akong friend..oh xmpre db? isang magndng cmula! HARHAR...
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
3:53 AM
at last..something new...!!!
something new, atlast! i've been waiting for this...wheaw...and sa wakas, natupad din.! jonell befriended me...harhar. ang saya diba? pero at the same time nalulungkot din ako. paano kasi ung "problem" nila ni arvin. ang hirap nga nung nangyari...well, kung ako siguro un, nag give up na ako.
by the way, nasasaktan at naguguluhan na naman ako.
ndi ko alam kung ano ba talagang nararamdaman ko! di ko ma-GETT kung bkit may mga nararamdaman akong kakaiba para sa taong nasa palagid ko. di ko rin alam kung bakit nasasaktan pa ko kahit d n nmn dapt...(argh, this isn't about justine..(0_o) )...at ung isa pa, ewan ko ba kung bakit gnun ung nrrmdmn ko pra sknia. . . . . argh!!! someone help me!!!
anyway...HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUKAI!!!! tanda ka na bukas!!! (september 14, (14! 14! 14! 14! 14!) )
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
5:56 AM
same old stuff...
...hay naku, xguro alam n ni justine ung "ihateyou" thingy na un. iniirapan n ko eh. argh..nkakapikon, pra xang babae. pwede nga xang mapag kamalang bakla. pero ndi rn nmn. argh..buti n lng ndi nia ko bnabad trip. nkakaasar xa!! hmpff....nkakainis tlga. 2wing naalala ko ung "ndi nia pag aalaga sakn...ung prang lgi xang wuang pake." argh...kung tutuusin, I was happier kaht ndi ngng kami ni "vnxn" whatever. but i really wanna move on. at oo,..moving on n nga. pero sna tantanan n ko ng mga alaala nia...waaahh, nkakacra kasi ng ulong blikan p ung nkaraan. sana nga. sana. sana.....
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Monday, September 11, 2006
5:42 AM
stop making things light...accept it, things are gettting heavier...!!
I don't know where I got the idea of my title. Maybe because of the picture I saw sa profile ng damn creature na un; note: friend ko s friendster. argh...I really hate him! HIM!!!! getT...him...ung oily n un, ung baboy n un....whatever you call him. ung manloloko.....naku! ewan ko ba kung bakit laging nagiinit ang ulo ko sa lalaking un. argh.....shockx..nakakainis. akala nmn kung cnong gwapo...at akala nmn kung cnong md****...hay naku.....xowee tlga s mga readers kung prng ang sama sama ko.....ang sama lng tlga lgi ng loob ko s knilang dlawa...and prang wala silang maramdaman....argh..manhid??!!shokz....dpat n clng ibunggo s wall!! they seem not to care...they seem to make alot of things light...when in fact they should not! i don't know kung tlgang gnun lng cla k INOSENTE s mga nggnap..........hay naku!!
lalaking manloloko........
titigilan ko na ang pag iiluxong kaht mnsan ngng honest k!!! liar....
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
headline: I TRIED TO KILL HIM BUT I CAN'T!
argh, this day really sucks somehow. . . .he's still my classmate..of course! aLIVE na ALIVE...argh. i told him to stop breathing, but he still did. . . i also told him to stop talking so that i wont hear his annoying voice but he still did! argh...when would his life end b kc? waaaa...i tried to kill him but i can't! i tried to kill him by not looking at him but i can still see a picture of him in my mind...i tried to block my ears so that i won't hear his voice but it back fired...his annoying aura is still there...argh!! sabi ko nmn kcng stop studying eh...sbi ko nga wak n xa pmsok p s skul...eh why b he's still there? arghh....i really hate him! i tried all techniques i know but none was effectve...pnaparinggan ko n nga at lhat eh ayaw p rn ako tantanan ng mukha nia n plgi ko nkkta kng saan saan...(pkalat-kalat?? ;0) pkramdam ko nga nagkakataon n ang lhat ng bgay!!! i know n he doesn't care anymore but destiny just keeps on teasing me....argh!!!!! boohhhoo...sna mklimutan ko na xa...dhil auko n sknia! auko na...ekei! i wanna start somethng new...i desperately want somethng new to happen....auko n sau!!!!...pero hbng cnsb ko un...lalo ko lng d mkalimutan ang pgmumukha mo!!!! i hate you....
iloveyou..
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
sulat kow kay grace..
PECO!
ui..sorry! sorry...sorry tayaga. i know its my fault. i know it! ikaw nmn ksi...*thoinx* xowee!! xowee tlga...ndi nmn tlga ako glit...or nglit...bsta...xguro ngng gnun ung labas but indi tlga! u must know me by now n may gnun atong ugali..ung bsta bsta sumcgaw or nagmmktol kea nagmmkhang glit or mnsan nagttmpo. peo i would be more than willng to change....xmpwe...for you! i won't let a simple thingy like that break or stop the beautiful fwendship we are just startng to build...er-ang bbw! peo im xo xo really..to the highest level xuper SORRY!...idont know kng mgkkaron ako ng courge to gve ths to u kea nga tnype ko n lng and if ever...sulat n lng sying n bshn mu ang blog ko ang ibbgay ko...DUH!...ang kornee ksi n2...bka mbsa p n dizon....
ui!
sorry tlga..sorry, sorry!!
awabxu!!!
ponci...
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Sunday, September 10, 2006
6:00 AM
when i hate you doesn't mean i hate you..
i hate you but i love you...i hate you because i love you...argh. anu bng dpat kong gwin o anu bng dapat mangyari pawa kamuhian kta ng husto...argh..nkakayamot! d n kta gus2 icpn..auko na sau! ayaw n kta makta...ayw ko n s idea ng pngalan mu! peo ndi p rn ako tnatantanan ng somethng about u...or even somthng bout her.....i hate you...argh,..peo d ko nmn mapnindgan. nkakayamot! i envy you...auko n tlga. d n lng ako ppsok..pra d kta mkta! d kya, d n lng ako ggcng, pra 2luyan n ktang mklimutan. o kaya, mas okay kung ikaw n lng trahin ko. oo tama. kaso dpt s bhay nio pra wua ung mga barkda mung mag ttngol sau! wahaha, kso d ko alam bhay nio. ahhh..lam ko n...stalk n lng kta!! bwahaha, tpos ska kta sskalin kpg nsa madlm n bhagi n tau ng kalsada...bwahaha, i hate you, ekei!!!?? stop botherng me brother!! i dont even want to tok to u. gus2 kong ipmuka sau n you're not worth of me, n mas ekei ako nung nwala ka...n i can leave w/out u...argh, i damn hate you!!!!!! i hate you..i hate you!!!!! stop enterng my senses...auko n sau!!!! i hate u...IHATEYOU!!! ur pissing me off.... nakakbad trip ang mukha mo...argh, if only kaya ko panindgan ko yang mga pnagsasabi ko.....if only i could be so mean to you........see? im not that crazy for you. mawame p kong pwdeng mahalin..at pwdeng mag mahal skn...ekei? mmahalin ko n lng si TOPHER GRACE...
(does anyone knows him? he's so cute, gosh!!...sna star dn ako s hollywood pwa may pag asa ako sknia.) ...argh...i hate you...ahhhhhhhhhhh...i love you....i don't want to love you anymore....stop studying....ekei? wag k na mag-aral...para d n kta mkta...wag k n rn magsslita para d ko n mrinig ang nkakairita mung boses....(sna), wag k n rng hihinga..hah!! please lng..sna tglan n ko ng aura mo!!!
anyone who's willing to help me...text me, 09104367942..or email nio ko, or kea nmn send kau ng mesage s friendster...please, i need advices...desperately!!!
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Saturday, September 09, 2006
3:28 AM
pekeng kaligayahan..
hmppf..nakakainis..paikot ikot ang mundo pero bkt prng ung mundo ko ndi p rn umiikot. naiinis ako sa mga nabasa ko. ang saklap. ang hirap tanggapin n sa lahat ng oras n cnsb nia n mahal nia ko...it wasn't even half meant. i hate him!!! i hate him..i damn hate him and i don't know kung mahi-heal p ng time 2ng nrrmdamn kong pag kamuhi sa kanya...hindi niya ko inalagaan..hindi niya ko iningatan...hindi niya ko minahal! SINUNGALING....i hate you! i envy you! sana malaman mo kung gaano mo ko nasaktan....you don't even care kung magalit man ako sau! ewan ko ba...manhid ka yata...and i really really hate you!!! argh....sana ndi n lng kta minahal. at mahal nga ba ang tawag sa ginawa mo? liar....argh...i really hate you! gusto kitang gantihan pero hinding-hindi ko magagawa un kasi i definitely won't please God. Argh....I HATE YOU!!!!
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Friday, September 08, 2006
3:32 AM
di ko maintindihan..
..hay naku. ang gulo ng araw koh. atzttt, di ko maintdhan kng ano ang dpt kong reaction. argh..ang hrap ng ctwaxon koh. tama b kcng i-push ko ang isang bagay?! but anyway it was just a very small thingy..arrggggghhhhh!!!!! 2ngkol lng nmn un s pag-ppgupit ko ng hair at sa pag ppkulot nmin ng hair ends...nyax...nkakatawa db? i wanted to say sorry pero nhhya ako kc bka mag mukha akong ktawa twa...and anyway i olredi told her n ndi ako glit!!! eh xa yta ang glit...argh...i don't know what to do..er-bhala n s mtap!!
...,hoi arvin, hindi ko inirapan ang mahal mo!! kung sino man nag sabi..(at prng "siya" nga ang nagsabi)...ndi ako gnun kakitid para irapan siya..cguro na misinterpret nia lng ako. No ill feelings for her...pero naiilang ako s knia...at sna tglan nia ung "arvin" thing n un..pati si rovie kasi ndi nmn nkktuwa...and anyway, what's with that? they're opening somethng n closed n nga!! hay naku..whatever!
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Thursday, September 07, 2006
2:47 AM
bd3p
nakakayamot talaga kapag inaatake ako ng pagiging unreasonable ko. Tulad kanina..
iniwan ko si vieira just because naiinis ako sa kanya dahil ayaw niya ibigay ung bag ko, coz accordng to her, kinokonxenxa ko daw xa. tztt,..(0_o) so aun..winok outan ko xa at nag-lakad na papunta sa rotonda para sumakay sa jip without saying goodbye and unreasonably leaving my bag to her. i don't know what would happen tom. im just so sorry...
nakakayam0t rin kapag nakita mo ang ex mo na may bago na kagad kasama..hinihintay or whatever!...bsta nakakayamot...(+_+)
nakita ko sila mag kasama, hinihintay siya ni justine sa may tindahan...!! grrr..i just wanna die of anger! and i don't know kung van nga nila ana ung nkta ko. And i wasn't sure kung si justine b ung nsa back seat...grrrr...i was so astonishd...nakakayamot! i don't know kung talagang inintay nia lng mawala ang asungot named "kristine" s knyang life para magng xuper hapi n clang dalwa...agrrrr..actuali,i think im over him na...but ang ndi ko mtnggap is ung kgnapan knina...ang bilis tlga!! argh...
nakakayamot rin kapag nakita mo ung guy na gusto mo tapos inasar siya ng mga barkada niya,..then..argh..ibg sbhn buking k na, na gusto mo xa!..
nakakaasar talaga kanina...i felt like i was gonna throw up! nakakainis...ndi ako prepared...tztt...bkt klngang danun? hayzz....nkakaasar nmn ksi si leonardo peco..bkt nmn ksi alam nia un!!! i felt so humilatd...argh...gusto ko n tlgng kainin ng lupa knina.!!!!
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
5:10 AM
so moving on..
I was so lifeless
I was so dumb
'Coz you were so careless
That's why I fell down
You were such a coward
But I can't reprimand
And all I could do was to let you go and fly
But now, I'm moving on
And you never deserved me
Tomorrow, if I'd be alone
I'd rather be beside myself
Than to live a hell of life with you!
Now you keep telling
That you don't deserve my love
'Coz you are not keeping
Those promises you broke
Guess you're a liar
Much like a drainer
You drained all the good stuff then left me hanging like dead
You're such a fool you fake it
And I was so blind to notice it
Guess all you did was waitin'
And today those things are nothin
'You loved, you cared and all for her
While I was there acting loner
But I'm moving on..
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
5:09 AM
*sanga-sangang pag-sinta.??*
,...unang-una,nagmahal ako ng isang taong di pwedeng mahalin..,
*ang hirap i-explain. mahal ko siya, minahal ko siya, minamahal ko siya..pero dapat hindi. HINDI ko siya pwedeng mahalin..isa siyang malapit na kaibigan...yun ang turingan namin, mahal namin ang isa't-isa...mahal bilang kaibigan!? magulo talaga...pero alam kong wala ng pag-asang maging kami pa ulit...alam ko kasing hindi naman seryoso ng mangyari yun,..alam ko ring hindi pwede..hinding-hindi!! isang malaking pagkakamali,may mahal na siya..at ako, ewan ko! gusto ko ng kalimutan ang mga sandaling nangyari...pero dahil sa pagkakamaling yun, sumaya ako. tztt, ang hirap naman nito....*
,....nagmahal ako ng isang taong hindi lang ako ang mahal...
*kahit tapos na ang lahat, hindi pa rin mawala sa isip ko ang mga naganap. Minahal ko siya, pero sa loob ng isang buwan na naging kami...hindi lang ako ang tanging minahal niya. Di ko lubos maisip na nauwi lamang sa wala ang lahat ng paghihirap ko na sigurado naman akong hindi niya napansin man lang. Sa loob ng isang buwan na iyon, naging malungkot at madilim ang mundo ko. Ewan ko kung bakit...pero ganun. Siguro nga, hindi talaga kami para sa isa't-isa. Pasalamat na rin at nakalaya na kami sa "paborito naming kulungan"...*
,....minamahal ako ng isang taong mahal ko bilang isang kaibigan..
*nakakagulantang ang mga nangyari, sa isang iglap ay sinabi niya na mahal niya na ako. Na love na nga ang nararamdaman niya para sakin. Noong una, ang sabi niya ay "crush" at may gusto nga raw siya sakin. Hindi ko naman binigyan iyon ng kulay dahil nga siya ay isa sa mga malalapit kong kaibigan. Nagulantang ako talaga ng malaman ko iyon. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong sasabihin ko sakanya. Ayoko rin namang makasakit pa ng tao...masyado na akong maraming nasasagasaan. Ayoko na. Pero ayoko rin naman mag-salita ng tapos...maraming pwedeng mangyari...marami.*
,....unti-unti kong minamahl ang isang tao gayong hindi ko naman siya kilala ng personal at ni hindi niya nga ako kilala....
*nakakayamot. bakit naman kasi hindi niya ko kilala. nakakaasar diba? sa tuwing makikita ko siya, pakiramdam ko, hanggang tingin na lang ako. Ni hindi ko marinig ang boses niya. Hindi ko pa siya kilala, pero sa lahat ba naman ng pwedeng manyari eh yung mahalin ko siya. Siguro nga totoo yung sinabi ni jonell na "hindi batayan ang pagiging close para mahalin mo ang isang tao". tztt, ewan ko. naguguluhan ako. hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang palaguuin ang nararamdaman kong ito para sa kanya o kalimutan ko na lang para wala ng magambala pa. hindi ko talaga alam...ewan ko. tulungan niyo ko.*
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
Sunday, September 03, 2006
3:56 AM
start of something new....
hay, life nga naman....e2 n nmn ako, *starting all over again*, prang paulit-ulit n lng ang nangyayari sakin...tztt.,first time ko nga un db?tpos, wuyang nangyre...tztt..nakakaasar!
so, I'm now trying to move on...
sana talaga maging maaus na ang buhay ko..sana rin maging masaya naman ako kahit papano....sana..puro sana..nakakasawa na! paano kasi, pkiramdam ko nung august...puro problema ang kinaharap ko...grrr....nakakainis!!!pero, desidido naman ako ngaun n mag-move on..hopefully nanjan ung mga friends ko para tulungan ako with this thingy..hehehe..
oh xge na po mga tao ng mundo ng blogspot..maraming salamat at hanggang sa muli!!!!
-xineksin-
SaNa TanTanan n KoH ng AlaAla mo..**
the little me
[x] kristine/xine/eksin
[x] prOud to be a RizAlian!
[x] III-2 browning
[x] hAppY to bE 14,.
[x] add nio ko s ym- imcute_thyne14@yahoo.com
[x] i love to eat good foods..
[x] i LoVe reAding NoveLs..lalo n Ung nakakaiyak..
[x] mAhiLig sa magazines, Total Girl!
[x] maHilIg sa chinito,,..ehehe!!
what i always dreamed of
[x] be a teacher, (ahem! journalism)
[x] happy and xuper colorful lovelyf..
[x] uh, mag-karon ng xuper loving 'rents...
[x] i had a million wishes
(does anyone knows him? he's so cute, gosh!!...sna star dn ako s hollywood pwa may pag asa ako sknia.) ...argh...i hate you...ahhhhhhhhhhh...i love you....i don't want to love you anymore....stop studying....ekei? wag k na mag-aral...para d n kta mkta...wag k n rn magsslita para d ko n mrinig ang nkakairita mung boses....(sna), wag k n rng hihinga..hah!! please lng..sna tglan n ko ng aura mo!!!
